Myspace blog from March 30, 2009
you had me floored from the start
so go ahead and grind my face
into the carpet some more
so unexpected you were
you swept me off my feet
and knocked the wind out of me
and i can barely breathe
with all the weight
of how much i seem to need you
all my thoughts seem to lead
straight to you
my mind a racing blur of emotion
in your arms i felt so safe
you cut to the core of me
you get under my skin
you infiltrated my defenses
tore down my walls
i am left vulnerable
so vulnerable
i hate this
i hate this
i hate this
was it intentional?
the way you broke down my guard
and let me feel safe
my hope climbing to the tallest towers
and smashing on the ground below
i lie here bleeding
and feeling betrayed
as you play it off innocently
but you are not at fault
for my rage
my anguish
this burning aching feeling in the depths
of my gut
my own stupidity has caused me this mess
a lack of self control
a lapse in judgment
my childish impatience
my needy nature
i alone am to blame
my soul a dark cell
with glimpses of light peeking through suddenly
and leaving just as quickly
where no one can seem to reach me
again i am alone
